Date: Thu, 3 Jul 2008 10:33:38 -0400
From: Dan Cahoon
Subject: Resolved
I wanted to share a bit with the listers regarding some important events in my life. My dogs now have new homes and will not longer menace the few visitors I have at my lonely house. Please feel free to come by and chat.
Sadly, I won’t be around very much for awhile, so just hang out on the porch or help yourself to whatever amenities the house may offer. I will be spending time with someone who calls me to say hello, invites me to special events, and generally likes me to hang around. It is nice to be wanted.
I know most people are on the road or busy with summer plans. I live a unique life in that my career allows me to have a long summer vacation. It has always been that way for me. I have free time during the day but none of my friends have the same. It can get lonely when the phone doesn’t ring (except for bill collectors and cranky exes’). I don’t get much email (except for spam) and I run out of “things to do”. When I finally get totally bored I write and read and do strange yet evocative art projects (usually out of trash and debris).
I have spent the last 15 years doing this lonely summer thing so I know how to make it through. For you suckers who have to work in the summer, I say, Call me when you get free. I guess these days the people I know in this community don’t get those free moments, or at least they don’t call or email. Did I do something wrong. I know I am outspoken but I have tried to help rather than hurt, give rather than receive.
For whatever is keeping those I consider friends from contacting me, I am truly sorry. I know I haven’t been good company these past few months, but if you know my situation you should understand. I am dealing with my pain and should have some better times ahead.
My better times will take me far from Chatham county, PBO and my local neighborhood. It is different down there but I am finding comfort in people who like me for who I am rather than for whom I am with. It is good to be with a community who appreciates my good works as a teacher and a community leader. I don’t think PBO or Chatham county really knows what I do, knows me for who and what I am. I wish it had been otherwise and I could have been accepted by this community. The support I have received from this chatlist and the many kind people I have met in my 4 years here has been helpful, but I am feeling left out now. Put out in the cold. It is too bad.
I am a good person. I have skills to offer my community. I need to be wanted, invited, included, to be a happy part of the community that surrounds me. I will be around for a little longer, getting rid of a home probably and plenty of stuff that I don’t need. Keep your eyes peeled for great deals on useless junk, strange yet appealing art objets, and other more useful items (projects never begun). Maybe that can be my legacy, those things that were a part of my former life. Thanks for the memories.
Call me. I would love a reason to hang around.
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Dan Cahoon
Moncure, NC 27559
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